It all started one autumn. The summer just passed was full
of loneliness and nostalgia. I wanted to be with someone who actually cared
listen to me, and also cared to talk to me. Yes I have always had a few really
good friends, but I think I wanted being someone special, or maybe I wanted to
meet the one for me. Yes, I have always been hopeless romantic, just like any
typical Piscean, floating on top of feelings/emotions. I am generally a good
judge of people, and I take time to get to know people. But, when I started to
know you, I wanted to know you more. I felt that the feelings were mutual. Although,
it was just facebook/gtalk dating, we did spend hours chit-chatting, sitting
thousands of miles away. Within just a week of knowing you, it was your 22nd
birthday. I had known well enough about your likings that I wanted to get you a
thoughtful present for your birthday, but my practical mind was saying that it
would be too soon. There were a lot of common things between us, but there were
so many differences too. You had been a great sports person, well acknowledged
too, and I was barely good at any sports. I had developed a great fondness for
you. I know it will be another act of hopeless romanticism but I am pretty sure
I remember everything we talked about when we had our first phone conversation.
You were hiding in the park beside your house from your parents, just to have a
conversation with me. That made me feel important and I loved the feeling. Almost
7-8 weeks passed just like that and I grew fonder of having a conversation with
you each passing day, sharing every details of my life with you and knowing bits
and pieces of your life. You shared many of your secrets with me, because you
trusted me so much. It felt awesome. I assure you, your secrets will always be
safe with me. Then you went away for a week to visit some of your relatives,
and it felt like the time had suddenly become slower. We couldn’t talk at all
that week. I was eagerly waiting for the week to get over so that I could have
a conversation with you. When you returned, I was so damn excited. I remember
you saying once to me that you felt so lonely and empty and I wanted to say
that I had been falling for you. But, my practical mind stopped me from doing
that, saying that I haven’t even met you once and it would be utterly stupid of
me. Didn’t I tell you I was hopelessly romantic? Yes, exactly that’s what I was
talking about. I was visiting home in sometime and I wanted to meet you once. Meanwhile,
we had some disagreements. And, for the first time you stopped talking to me.
You were angry at me. It felt like thousands of sharp needles piercing my
heart. I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t. My parents couldn’t figure out what had
suddenly happened to my mood. I wrote an emotional poem for you. I don’t know
if you ever read that, but it makes me teary-eyed even now, when I read it.
Then, I met you.
to be continued...
to be continued...